who do you think i am?
someone without a feeling?
someone that can make everything perfect?
i am just a human being. unperfect human being that born with a feeling.
all of you do this at the same time.
in the same day..
all of you.. all the people that i love more than my self.
is it difficult to understand me once?
is it difficult to think what i feel?
to whom i want to share this? to whom?
all of you gone in the same time..
just.. i hate this..
where are you when i need you to talk with?
i tried to smile, to laugh. i tried to pretend happy cause dont want one of you worry about me.
but, what? nobody cares!
nobody try to calm me down.
i cried everynight, yes i did. i dont lie! and now, i still do.
is it my tear is nothing to you?
i dont want your sympathy.
i just want you to understand me, just for now.
my mind becomes horrible nowadays.
i dont know why.
maybe because of my examination.
and for your information, i dream of my late mom everynight since last two weeks.
i just miss her, all her love.
my grandma sicks.
then, my idiot autie keeps disturbing us.
my headache dont stop attacking me.
i tried to ignore it but i cant.
i tried to share with all of you, but nobody there!!
everyone is gone without thinking about me!
i dont have any mood but you dont care.
i want to share but you mad at me.
you blame me.
you angry to me.
i try my best to make you happy but still i am the one who is wrong!
do i just not important anymore? or i never be that important?
just, please.
i beg you. i just want the old us.
i just want the love.
i just want be the Lina Nurfiqah like before.
dont let this change me.
dont let this killing me.
i dont have anybody else to talk with.
i just need you to listen and understand me.
thats all i want.
i beg to all of you.
i cant be that perfect.
please, dont go away from my life.
perhaps, i dont have any chance to go with you.
please.
i dont have anybody else.
JUST YOU.
the real,
Lina Nurfiqah.
Labels: Bestfriend., Memories.
♥written by yours truly
11:24 PM