"friends are people who got your back, not people that talk behind your back then deny it when you confront them"
♥written by yours truly
So, I ditched my blog cos' I don't know. Prolly, I will delete my blog with a strong reason (won't state it here anyws!)
Before I start my post, I warn you guys that this post gonna be lil bit childish and totally nonsense, but yeah, can't help my self :) I am not being rude nor mean, I just want to give the explanation which I think its unnecessary!
I was helping my friend who was being the MUA cos' she is in trial that time and she requested me to find models. But that time, I didn't even know that she wanted me to be one of the models, with Izzati Aqillah either. Actually the planned was to take shoots with another models but then, the MUA wanted me to arrange it as two days of photoshoot sessions (very last minutes planning!) and we were lacking of photographers and models. 3-4 days before the first session, I was so stressed to find the models and the photographers. Then, I was helped by one of my friends to become our photographers and the MUA asked me to bring my bestfriends which she picked them from the pictures of my facebook! They need 6 models and there we are, 6 of us! Its not my planning, how can I invite you? Like, I didn't even tell anyone of us ( you know who!) And we didn't even know that they themed it as 'bff photoshoot' cause we were just doing it for fun!
That was my boyfriend's planning which was totally last minute too! Like, we planned it few hours before that! And how can even I invite you when my boyfriend didn't even tell any of his friends. He was the one who asked me to invite Izzati Aqillah to be with us. There, 3 of us spending our time together.
You feel left out? You shouldn't feel that way. I don't know what to say but you have your own family. Its not like cause of that we don't even want to hangout with you, but we have to respect your husband, your family. You are the one who told us that your husband won't let you go with us like before, remember? You are not like our 'baby' girl anymore, you have them to take care of. Like, can't you see? We are not like who we were before. I mean like, Qistina is not being with us anymore. Qiedah, we don't meet each other like everyday. You, you are having your privacy time. Me, I have my own boyfriend. PP, she is busy with her life. But then, coincidentally me and PP still being together cause we are always keep in touch in msn or facebook. We don't have any new 'bbf' like what you said cause its just between me and her. Yeah, we have new friends but is it wrong to have new friends? We are the one who shall feel left out cause you guys are so busy with your own times! Its just, we both are facing it together and being together all the times. But now, when we are trying to get busy with our life, you guys take it like we are being selfish! Come on, can't we have our privacy time too? Can't we have a good times like you do? And one more, when you are having your good times with your family, do you ever call/tell/invite us? :) See, this is a fact! Yes, we are bestfriends, we are sisters, but we can't be like before cause days by days, we will grow up and we will choose our own path of life. The point is, are we guys still being that 'bff' like before, being there for each other? Thats all. I am not saying like I throw all of you, but what if you are in my or pp's position? Like, you can have your own good times without telling us, but when we are trying to do so, you think we are mean!
I love you, all of you. I just can't find a way to show it anymore.
I delete my chatbox with reason! ;D
Me and Izzati Aqillah ♥♥
♥written by yours truly